life is funny

 or maybe I should

 say life is confusing

 just when I think

I am passed the wall

 it comes back and smacks

me in the face

 it is okay though

 I won’t stay down

 long

the calling

 The desire is not to rise above the calling

 the desire is to follow the calling

 follow the path

 stay on the road

 Journeys though not always inspirational

 are always educational

 live, learn, feel, follow

 listen

the lacking

 sometimes creativity hits a wall

 then I feel like I am going to fall

 the sadness can take over at times

 when I can’t think of anything that rhymes

 it leaves me without a place for the black

 a place to put it a way

the beauty

100_39261.jpg It is a gift to notice the beauty

 The way a tree is formed

 The colors of the sky

 the way the clouds make shapes

 all pleasant to the eye

New painting

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A Heart

a big red heart

with cracks all around

 Maybe I should have known better

than to open my mind for all to see

 to show all about me

 I usually don’t operate this way

 i keep things buried

 day to day

 No problem for me if

 I do not feel

 No problem for me if

 nothing seems real

 The problem is in the truth I reveal

 The truth isn’t easy at all-   by- Christy

restlessness

I am so restless-what can I do?

 Can I sit still and listen to you?

 I could but right now my patience is gone

 It is not a good feeling

 I know I am wrong

 To try and sort out this mess in my mind

 I don’t know the way to the peace I will find

Where

 Where is the destination

 will I figure it out

 What is the journey

 I am living out

 I’m carrying a burden

 What I do not know

 i need a sign to show me

 which way to go

words

I go in and out of the yellow and black

alternating between the two

 I know where I want to go

 I just don’t know how to stay there

 this is my world right now

written Dec. 7th 2007

What if the numbness continues

 what if the light can’t get through

 what if I never live up to

 all that I’m needed to do

 Would this be a moral dilemma

 or would it be several gifts never used

 Would it be like the vision was blurred

 or without reason or rules